some things are better left unsaid but its said.

I know ive said it many times this time im moving on and not looking back im unhappy .im happy yes to an extent w.this man then he puts me down tells me what i can and cant do or what i shouldnt wear and to get dressed up juss to go to his house but what im really .really unhappy is the person that ive become..the whole point that im jumping through hoops trying to please this man, trying to be what he wants me to be .look and act..i do more for him then i do for myself and in the end hes still unhappy .i hold back on alot of things that i want to do and with me hes never had that problem he does what he wants and doesnt ask for my opinion yet alone doesnt care about what i think .so why should i listen to him??did he ask me what i thought about him gettin tattoos?if approve w.him gettin a haircut?ive always accepted him from his apperance because when u love someone u dont care about their looks .looks are skin deep. when ur in a relationship u have to decide for both.right?wrong.u do what u want if u want to look a certain way or wear what u want .get a tattoo u do it because u want too .im tired of going by someone elses rules and not being able to live my life as an adult .im young.there is alot i want to do with no one giving me restrictions i want to be my own boss .i want to even take a dance class without feelin like i shouldnt be doing it because im told im not allowed ..im tired of jumping through hoops trying to make someone happy but i get nothing out it.i said looks are

Skin deep then personality kicks in but when personality constantly puts you down because ur not what they want in their eyes why r u still there?im unhappy with myself for lettin a man do what he wants with me and completely forget about what i want for myself .ive been in a relationship for so long that i forgot how to stand for myself and make my own choices .everything i had and felt for this man didnt juss go away its not him its me .for letting it get to this for letting a man do what he wants and control me .its my own fault